Last week for Thinking Out Loud Thursday I shared some of my thoughts about being torn in different directions as a work-at-home mom. Today I wanted to share about something else I’ve been having a hard time with: my postpartum fitness routine. I thought it would be a lot easier than it is to get back into the swing of things. I thought I’d have a lot more time than I do. I thought I’d be back to my old workout routine in no time, but that definitely hasn’t been the case.
What I Thought Postpartum Fitness Would Be
As a fitness blogger, I never in a million years thought my postpartum fitness would be something I struggled with. I imagined that I’d work out all through my pregnancy and I’d be back to running 6 or 8 weeks after I gave birth, whenever my doctor cleared me. I thought I’d be back to hour-long power yoga classes and strength training and barre and all of my favorite workouts. I was totally wrong.
First, I didn’t think I would have to miss out on workouts in my first trimester because I was dealing with almost crippling nausea pretty much 24/7. Then, I didn’t anticipate that my body wouldn’t really like high-intensity workouts like running after I started to feel better. I expected to feel a lot more fit during my pregnancy than I did, mostly because I was used to pushing through tough workouts. But, I knew I shouldn’t push it when I was pregnant.
I also didn’t plan on getting a C section. (What first-time mom does?) I didn’t anticipate the extra recovery that comes from having a C section. Slowly walking was a huge workout those first few weeks. I’ve had to take things a lot easier than I had anticipated, which has made my comeback a lot slower. I had an issue with high blood pressure a few weeks after Baby B was born that I had to deal with. I still occasionally feel little twinges in my scar, too. I wanted to stay away from doing crazy workouts until I checked with my OB (who says everything is healing nicely).
I also never thought I’d struggle to find time to work out. Fitness has always been a priority for me, so I thought I’d have no problem asking my hubby to watch the baby for an hour so I could go take a class at the gym. But, every day I feel like I’m really far behind on work, so when the baby’s sleeping or when my hubby’s taking care of her, I’m working.
When I’m active, it’s more mommy-and-me style. I walk with the baby, I do squats holding the baby, I’ll use her as a weight for things like chest presses, and so on. But, because those are so quick, they never feel like a “real” workout. I’m just about 4 months postpartum and I expected to be a lot more fit than I feel like I am.
I also feel like a total failure as a fitness blogger for doing quick and easy workouts. I feel like I should be out running marathons or doing really hardcore weight training. Instead, most of the cardio I can get in is walking with the baby. (Hoping to get a jogging stroller soon, though.) I have yet to even set foot in a gym after giving birth. I’m hoping that will change soon, but I also expected that to have changed months ago. I’m actually embarrassed to mention this on the blog, but I feel like I need to keep it real.
I also seriously struggle with still being 10 pounds heavier than I was before I got pregnant. I think several of those pounds are in my boobs (thank you, breastfeeding), but it’s frustrating to still be heavier than I’d like to be. I try to eat well and get in my fruits and veggies. If you follow me on Instagram, you know I do a ton of smoothies and smoothie bowls. I also eat a lot of salads. But that baby weight is stubborn! I have to keep reminding myself that I was pregnant for nine whole months. I shouldn’t expect my body to snap back in less than half that. But, it’s still hard.
Mommas, do you struggle to balance fitness and babies? Please tell me I’m not alone!
Linking up with Amanda for Thinking Out Loud Thursday.